“I might be paranoid, but an Android..~~”
Gaaahhh.. It’s saturday niite, tapi gw stay di rumah..
Listening to radiohead song.. alone..
then, writing this..
berhubung, ini blog pribadi gw.. and no ones care bout it.. gw mau tulis sesuatu yang gak jelas, hehe..
Tadi malem, mami pulang ke rumah dengan ngomel-ngomel.. Gw langsung nutup selimut dan pura-pura tidur.. Tapi, mami tau kalo gw pura-pura tidur.. trus ngebangunin gw..
“Dek, bangun dek.. Apotik kena musibah!”
“Heh? musibah? apaan?”, Gw dengan pura-pura ngantuk dan rambut acak-acakan.
“Tadi, mbak vivi (asisten apoteker gw) salah ngasih obat.. “
“KOK BISA?”
“Iya, salah baca tulisan dokter yang carut-marut. Tulisannya obat salep mata, tapi kebacanya obat salep kulit”
“DAH ! gimane th?”
“Gak tau, makanya mami pusing banget nih.. takut mata orangnya buta..”
“Sabar deh mih..”, kata gw.. trus langsung tidur terlelap.
bukannya gw not too care bout that, cuman.. tauk deh.. lagi males mikir..
hari ini gw habiskan dengan buka komputer, maen games setengah jam, trus matiin komputer, trus nonton teve, makan, nyalain komputer lagi, baca-baca lirik radiohead, buka FS, matiin komputer, kebawah, makan, nonton teve, trus nyalain komputer lagi, buka YM gak ada yang OL (sialan!), buka blog beraspulen, trus bosen n matiin komputer, trus maen PS game The Godfather, eh.. loadingnya lama, gak jadi, trus nyalain komputer lagi, nyoba-nyoba nulis puisi, baru dapet satu puisi, bosen, trus buka FS lagi, baru buka home, gak tau mau ngapain, trus tutup lagi, buka YM (pake hape) yang online si keling ama andin, baru chat bentar, eh.. baterenya abis.
Dan sekarang saya berkutat di blog ini.. dengan cuaca mendung diluar, diiringi lagu radiohead (lagi) yang ‘nice dream’ , lagunya ‘dreamy’ banget..GAHHH..
~nice dream.. nice dream.. if you think that you strong enough..
~nice dream.. if you think you belong enough..
i’m such an idiot.. i’m too lazy.. i cant live like this anymore!!!
Selasa nanti ada ulangan KIMIA, dan saya tidak mengerti APAPUN, tadi tuh udah rencana mau belajar.. tapi apa daya?? RADIOHEAD REALLI STUCK IN MY HEAD..
bentar-bentar pengen denger lagu radiohead.. ADDICTED ..
Apalagi yang judulnya ‘idioteque’ ..
GOD,! HELP ME TO CONCETRATE !
I CANT CONCETRATE AT ALL..
REALLY.. I CANT..
WHEN I’M DOIN SOME EXAM, I CANT FOCUS ON THE TEST..
PIKIRAN GW TERBANG KEMANA-MANA..
KALO BISA GW TANGKEP, GW TANGKEP DAH tuh pikiran..
“What the hell am i doin here? i don belong here~~”
i’m a creep, i’m a weirdo, i’m a coward, i’m useless, i’m pathetic, i’m idioteque, i’m gloaming, i’m the world, i’m the dreamer, i’m toilet sheet, i’m not important, i’m just a trash, who am i?
Theres a question dat stuck in my head : “Am i really exist?”
“is it a dream? or a reality?”
” is my mom really my mom?”
“Is my brother really my brother?”
“Is my father really already dead?”
“am i not alone?”
“Who are my real friends?”
“If i die, is my friends and my family really gonna cry for me? Like i cry for them?”
“Do they really like me? or just need me?”
“Who’s gonna be my husband in the future? what does he look like?”
“Do i love him, or just love to sees his smile?”
that question, would it be answered?
TELL ME HOW, bud!
That question, would it be answered?
